twenty six zero eight zero nine

“would you believe in a love at first sight
yes, i’m certain that it happens all the time”
(joe cocker)

10:10 pm.

today is kinda chilly.  its beginning to be cold out here now.  and its a perfect day to run.

today i lifted that bar again.  i ran a little bit faster.  i did my 5.4 mile run in a 10 minute to a mile ratio.  its a minute faster per mile than last night.  oh i felt good about myself.  im good.  whats my goal again?  7 minute per mile run.  wohow.

on the ride to the museum this morning, bruce was telling me to just maintain the distance for my nightly run.  he said anyway im not going into the olympics or in any marathon.  hahahaha  who told you so bruce?  hahahaha  oh its the competitive spirit in me that keeps me going on for more in everything that i do.  thats why i always try to conquer my last achievement.  thats why i always lift the bar higher everytime.  coz there’s no such thing as status quo.  and btw, you’re too gay, bruce.  LOL

wise words of bruce for today.  he said that life is short and it needs to planned out.  carefully, that is.  its like building a castle.  its one rock at a time.  hmmm.  well.  he’s right.  things should be done a day at a time.  you just cant rush things.  planning is the key.  and of course implementing those plans.  and planning again if the plan didnt work out.  exactly.  bruce, you get 10 points for those words of wisdom.  hahahaha  at least you got that right.  LOL

“piece me back together when i fall apart”
(plain white t’s)

another important thing i learn lately is the thing we call control.   control in everything you do.  control over your very own self.  but you know its not that easy to do as it seems.  its so hard to gain control, dude.  probably it takes a certain level of maturity to do it.

you know how its hard to get yourself to run every night.  yes.  after a day’s work and still with the sore of the previous night’s run, its hard, dude.  but it takes full control of your mind and body to run as soon as you get home from the museum.  believe me, its not that easy as it seemed to be.  you just have to be in total control of everything coupled with the right discipline and all the goals in mind.

you know how its hard to control your diet after a 5 mile run.  dude, im starving right after.  hell yeah.  but you just have to be in full control not to over feed.  coz over feeding will throw everything you did into waste, right?

you know when you’re so mad, you cant think right.  and if you dont have that control, you flare-up and explode.  and you just mess things up.  so still, control is the key.  coz some things are better left unsaid.  so you should be in full control of your emotions and all your senses as well.

short of saying, the key is control of everything about you including your own body, your own emotions and your own senses.  as i said, its hard but you just have to.  we’re not kids anymore and there’s no room for childish shit.  we just have to put ourselves in a whole new level, a different level of maturity.  coz its the only way to go forward.  its the only way to be better as a person and in everything that we do.

i know its always so hard to say the word NO especially when everybody says YES.  but just practice saying it and in time you’ll get the hang of it.  coz its always okay to say NO.  and say it with pride and conviction.  and if you can say the word then you can say that somehow you have gained control over things.

11:00 pm.

what do you feel at the end of the day?

im out.

“and when the night is cloudy
there is still a light that shines on me”
(the beatles)

~ by the fortunate pilgrim on August 26, 2009.