twenty zero four zero nine

10:36 am.  just got home, dude.  errands and more errands.  supplies and more supplies.  picked up my med refills at wal-mart.  well.  i need it to keep my sanity and keep writing this shit.  LOL

“…I’m willing to make that deal
Is there a chance to carry on
If they could feel the way I feel
They would see the reason
Why I’m talking to you.
Don’t let behind the reasons why we’ve come this far
You’ll feel the pride of what we are

two rivers run to see and catch your falling stars
in troubled times, come to me for shelter
ill be running to be with you again…”

two rivers.  the adventures.  an 80s new wave band.  a pretty old song, though.  but check out the lyrics.  its so poetic that it still rocks.  they write in reference too.  see?

i dunno but i think people who write are basically sad.  they make writing a source of therapy or an outlet, you know.  i think, most are.  edgar allan poe i guess is one.  even song writers and/or lyricists are too.  one thing that inspires them to write is love but with a tinge of sadness in the background.  you know what im sayin? 

emotions like sadness can be masked.  you can hide your true emotions but it will show in your eyes and on your whole facial expression.  you can smile but you know how a half-baked smile is.  and the same goes with a laugh, dude.  its like a half meant laugh.  LOL   maybe you can hide it for sometime but in time it will show.  its like your very true colors.  it always shines through.  no matter what.  no matter how.  even when you express yourself in writing, it will truly show.  exactly.

i always hang around at you tube and i was amazed at a you tube post ive seen earlier today.  its susan boyle of britain’s got talent.  it was her performance in like days ago.  susan boyle is a 47 year old, unemployed spinster from a small village in Scotland.  and can you imagine her joining a talent show?  hahahahaha  oh dude she was prejudged by the way she looked.  check the video link out.  some said she didnt look the part.  oh dude, that was so mean.  frankly, she looked like she didnt belong in that reality talent show.  but oh boy.  but when she sang les miserables i dreamed a dream, the people were shocked.  even the judges, dude.  even simon cowell.  oh dude.  everybody stood up after she sang, dude.  she was so amazing.  thats real talent behind the not so good looks.  oh dude.  people were just teary eyed after.  they were all touched.  now, she’s all over the papers.  she’s all over the news.  she’s everywhere.  oh dude.  oh yes.  she dreamed a dream and now she’s living  the dream.  way to go, dude.

so far the forecast out here has always been right.  yes.  the fluctuation maybe is under 10 plus or minus.  its a first world thing, i guess.  what im trying to say here is, it really rained yesterday afternoon as the forecast said.  and it was gay.  i know.  and today it rained too.  tomorrow’s forecast is still a rainy day.  wednesday is gonna be a mix of rain and snow showers.  oh great.  oh yes.  you heard me right.  snow showers.  again.  damn.  crazy weather really.  but the weekend’s gonna be warm again.  and thats a thing to look forward to, i guess.  LOL

well today is a monday.  and its a rainy day.  a rainy monday is a double whammy.  damn.  in short, its slow and its booring.  oh dude.  its a long day.  LOL 

during this time of the year, except in the winter months, seagulls are all around the parking area.  you know there’s a lake just maybe two miles east from where we are.  seagulls have evolved so far in their diet too.  they dont like to eat fish anymore.  they like to scavenge on burgers and fries that people just throw in the parking area.  they love to eat poison too.  LOL  i guess in time the poison diet will mutate the seagulls.  by then we’ll start to see two-headed seagulls or a three-winged species.  LMAO

11:19 pm.  brb dudes.

now, back to that publication thing.  well after the actual publishing of the paperback is the marketing aspect.  yeah.  we need to promote it.  the lady from the publishing house said we have to have some press releases and press cons.  wow.  oh dude.  am i going to be in the big league now?  well.  im gonna roll with the lions and the eagles, dude.  LOL  but in the event that i need to be in a press conference for a launching or a promotion of my paperback or something, ill still be the same, dude.  i’d still wear what im comfortable with.  if its warm, then ill wear my shorts and shirts plus my skate shoes.  if its cold, then ill wear my pants plus the skate shoes still.  hahaha  dude, thats being myself and being different, i guess.  and i think thats way cooler than me pretending not to be me, wearing a suit or something.  that would be so gay.  ill just keep it real, dude.  this is me.  and this is my memoirs.  take it or fuck off.  LOL  this is how i look and this is how i write.  and thats it.  exactly. 

oh dude.  im so excited now.  i just have to read the guidelines and all and shortlist all my concerns and issues and ill give the publisher a call.  the lady is actually waiting for my call any minute now.  and we’ll discuss everything.  aint that cool? 

well.  this thing started at first sight, then it became a dream.  from there it became a passion and a commitment.  and pretty soon, its gonna be immortalized in a paperback.  a paperback of worldwide circulation.  and thats forever.  its that great, dude.  and sweet.  its a legacy im leaving.  its the only thing i can do for the thing now.  its proving something that things written and said will stand.  forever in my world.  or till its fulfillment somehow.

brb.

12:08 am.

“…Well, I hear you whispering in the words, to melt everyone
But you stay so cool
My muñequita, my Spanish Harlem, Mona Lisa
You’re my reason for reason
The step in my groove

And if you said this life ain’t good enough
I would give my world to lift you up
I could change my life to better suit your mood
‘Cause you’re so smooth

And it’s just like the ocean under the moon
Oh, it’s the same as the emotion that I get from you
You got the kind of lovin’ that can be so smooth, yeah
Give me your heart, make it real
Or else forget about it”

smooth.  carlos santana and rob thomas.  oh yeah.  you’re sooo smooth.

12:42 am.

photography.  its not one of my passions yet but i enjoy doing this.  its like capturing time in a freeze frame.  capturing a moment in a still frame and keeping it forever.  i like taking pictures of my so called fixations.  LOL  well my bike keira is one. i think i have like a thousand of captured stills already, dude.  and in every possible angle.  LOL  what im using now is just like a regular camera.  a point and shoot kodak digital camera but i make the most out of it and of its features.  and so far, i have some good shots with only my regular camera.  matter of fact i submitted pictures to an online photography site, onexposure.com.  fortunately all my submitted pictures were rejected.  hahahaha  but the good thing was the critique they had for my shots.  my pix was good considering the cam that i used but the guys said i lack to portray the drama and i need better composition.  well, the pix i submitted was an almost a raw file.   LOL  anyway, i still have to learn a lot about this thing.  eventually, ill invest in a better camera, a DSLR.  oh yes.  i need this for the bucket list anyway.  and after some photoshop tweaks, ill try submitting new pix to that site again.  LOL

someone i met in my journey told me once that i have the eye for pix.  hmmm.  what she was saying was the porno pix.  sensual pix, i guess.  maybe thats another aspect i wanna explore.  LOL  and thats a good excuse.  nude photography.  hahahaha 

brb.

1:12 am.

comic relief.  this is so hilarious dude.  check this out.  i just cant stop laughing out here.  LOL

well.  today something happened at work.  remember the two bad boys who robbed the store weeks back?  well.  they were back today.  again.  to rob us again, i guess. what else could it be?  bruce kicked them out but the taller guy wouldnt go out.  he said he just wanna buy a shirt in peace.  but bruce already called the cops.  or at least acted out to call.  LOL  the bad guys know that bruce was not really calling the cops.  he could figure out the dial tone, dude.  hahahaha  and then after all the cussing, bruce was so pissed off.  and the taller guy was somehow pissed off too.   the smaller guy was standing by the door and ready to leave.  but the taller guy came back for bruce.  and i could see he was clenching his fist ready as if to hit bruce or something.  i was only standing there the whole time with my hands in my pocket.  and the paper cutter was always ready in my hand.  in case, dude.  its either me or him, you know.  and the guy was reaching out for something inside his jacket, dude.  and i could figure out there was something in there.  and i saw a grip, dude.  its a piece.  and bruce yelled to mss bruce to get the shotgun.  oh dude.  it was like bruce was wailing, dude.  it was kinda funny, you know coz i know we dont even have one.  well as far as i know.  when the boys heard the shotgun word, they ran, dude.  you know they might be way taller and bigger than us but they still have the heart of a kid, dude.  and off they ran.  they were like oh they have a shotgun, man.  hahahaha  but dude, all the time we were like just an arm’s reach.  if he’s gonna pop out bruce then the next one he’s gonna pop out is me coz im standing behind him.  but i was ready, dude.  coz there’s nowhere to run to, dude.  its either me or him.  and the paper cutter was as ready as me.  ill just gonna reach for his jugular, dude.  i did never twitched.  i was ready.  me or him.  oh dude.

but after what happened, when the realization of things finally dawned on me, my legs were suddenly wobbly, dude.  i could have died there, dude.  oh dude.  it freaked me out.  damn.  its the D.  and its a daily thing.  its just a matter of surviving.  survival of the fittest.  and the elimination of the unfit.  oh man.

i know those kids are gonna be back for more.  not this week or not tomorrow.  but they will be one day.  oh man. those are the things that happen on a really slow day.  bad guys are out walking and robbing and stealing from store to store. 

since today was kinda slow, bruce had a new hobby.  he ’s a self proclaimed chemist today.  hahahaha  the water content of the fossilized chemicals due to decades of existence in the basement has somehow evaporated.  what bruce did was to add some to make it somehow look full.  hahahaha  but whats funny was he added a different brand of chemicals but of the same type though.  and his term was he upgraded the thing coz what he added was a better product.  hahahaha  oh dude.  he was kinda justifying what he did.  LOL  and after he did all those chemical mix, he put it back on the shelves again for sale.  oh damn.  its so funny.  hahahaha  i just cant imagine the guys who’ll buy that thing.  hahahaha  i just cant imagine the chemical reactions there is to it.  hahahaha  oh dude.  its hilarious.

1:40 am.  gotta do some more stuff dude.  im logging out now. 

well.  another day survived out here.  die another day, that is.

1:55 am.  im out.

~ by the fortunate pilgrim on April 20, 2009.