eleven zero one zero nine
waddup, dude?
7:52 pm. home.
its so fuckin boring out here. the d link is again down. no internet. we are all offline. damn. oh i just wanna die.
shower done. oh. nothing beats a hot shower at night on a cold day. its like you’re just standing under the shower, head down and with both hands up against the wall. and you just stand there doing nothing with eyes closed feeling every drop of water on your head, on your body and on the tub floor. for me, its one of the best times to reflect on certain things. it feels so calm and serene and so soothing thats why. it kinda balances the cold you had on a long walk home. it somehow rejuvenates you from all the fatigue after a long day’s work. its like resets your life as you prepare for another day of living, fighting and surviving. some of the best thoughts come on these moments, just like walking or riding a bike. actually its like a war room where you get to conceptualize plans. and moments like these always feel good. maybe because planning is hoping. or maybe planning gives you a sense of direction somehow.
“You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby”
always be my baby. david cook. an american idol guy. a mariah carey cover. this song is like a summary of it all. its like in a nutshell of the thing.
this thing, you know is just like boxing. you know, you come to the fight well prepared. it takes months and months or even years to get prepared. physically. mentally. and psychologically. the winning attitude is so overwhelming. but you know how things are way different in the actual fight. with the pressure and the crowd, things are different on the ring. you might get cut and badly beaten. you might get really bruised, with a broken nose and bleeding all over. but you just keep rolling with the punches. you stick to the footwork. use the ropes. jabbing. you might be saved by the bell after each round. but all the time, you never lose your focus. you still wait for that opening. the best time to throw that knock out punch before the final round. oh yes. and it will come.
maybe its also like biking. a race for example. its like you just keep on spinning. just being there with the pack. not ahead. but not way behind too. till the you get the right break. till you get the clear visual of the end. then you just shift gears, stand up and with all the force left, grind your thing and break away all the way to the end.
the bottomline of it all is what they call the heart. its not only the capacity to love. its the summary of it. it all boils down to this thing. its what makes a man. its what makes a character. its how you respond to all the pressures. its how you react to life and death situations. its how you stand up for all your convictions. its prudence in all judgement calls. right or wrong, its your word. its your balls. its your gut. its he who has a bigger heart shall prevail in the end. and in really crucial and critical situations, this thing separates the men from the boys. you know how boys would just run and hide from responsibility and all. thats it.
well. just a thought. but thats very true. its a fact of life.
fly with the eagles. this is a quote i would never forget. i used this in my presentation way back in my stint in pharma. if you wanna be the best, roll with only the best. got that? coz the eagles pull you up. they dont slow you down. they dont drag you. its just like how you roll with the lions. roll only with the king of the jungle. you dont just roll with the low ballers. if they suck, you suck more. if they stink, you stink more than them. if they go down, you’re even below them. eagles and lions exude confidence. they may not know it but they have the aura. the bearing of it all. and the fact is, being the best is contagious. you know how it works. it starts as a feeling. then it becomes you. you acquire it along the way somehow. oh yes. especially if rolling is gonna be forever, you just have to roll with the eagles. rock and roll, nigger.
oh its pelvis presley’s bday today. priscilla is on cnn. oh my. she cant even smile, dude. she’s all stretched up. oh man. look at how science is messing things up now.
its a sunday. so we have shorter work hours. its love, me and AJ. since its a snow day, we again did the snow. oh my this is not fun. its a tiring exercise, dude. its like you’re working in a construction site. but anyhow. out here, everybody’s doing it. so its kinda cool. but still. its really tiring. after a while i could see AJ just sitting in a corner looking tired. he’s old, dude. i think he cant do this anymore. i mean the heavier stuff. he wonders about me. you know, he lets me do all these shoveling thing and it seems i dont get tired at all. im no machine, dude. i do get tired. i just recover quickly maybe. the parking area and the front area. oh man, you just dont realize how wide it is. this is for the snow truck. dude. but you know, AJ and his money saving tips. he wanna cut cost on that and we do it instead. chink.
oh my. my hair is really so nappy now. after shower i tried taking the natural locks down. its so hard and so time consuming. i did some. well. but not all. ill do the rest tomorrow.
love is trying to learn some hair stuff like braiding and doing the dread locks. cool. she’s into you tube learning the thing. i volunteered my hair for the locks. LOL she’s gonna do it every sunday when AJ’s not around. well. thats a 500 bucks savings, dude. we’ll see.
my morning routine is i smoke after i get up from bed. well if i get up on or before my alarm time, that is. smoking
room is in the garage. and its dragon time as well. dragon just likes to play in the snow. everytime he’s out. well, it was snowing since the past day, right? accumulation is about 10 inches. damn. its during these times that you can really rely on my boots. the 10 year old boot with so much character. the green hornet boot. and the tallest boot i had. imagine if this is a cherry red color. it should have been way cooler. but, as it is. its cool. and i just love it.
after preparing for work, i wait for AJ’s call. then the long walk to the gas station.
forecast for the week is so bad. its gonna be a colder week. thursday’s high is only at 8F. meaning the low is in the negatives. again. damn. bundle up, dude. and its gonna be a snowing week. oh my. its not even funny anymore, dawg.
i remember the thing about having a dog. wait up. hold on, BRB.
oh my. good thing the connection’s back. great!
but damn. its so slow. it breaks. not consistent. whats happening, dawg? darn d link!
yes. about a dog. i remember the dog breeders back home. especially the dog show fanatics. you know how these guys import show type dogs, right? they spend a fortune for these dogs all the way from the americas or europe or even from asia. if a breeder buys a new one, then another will buy a better and a more expensive one. and flaunt it around during dog shows. so lame. its like keeping up with the ayalas or the jones’. so gay, dude. is it a must? is it really necessary to have one coz your friend has one? is it needed to be on the thing called status symbol and stay in the circle? crazy. you know thats the thing always. even in the real life. coz best friend A has this and had this, i need it as well. coz friend B needs this then i might have it as well. well, its like an unending coping up with other people. but the bottomline is, are you happy with what you’re doing? or are we just simply trying to show others that we can do it as well but in fact all thats happening underneath is just for a show. its like showing others that you can do it too. crazy, right? it doesnt make sense in the first place. doing things, which you are not happy about doing. if its like the coping up thing then happiness is definitely out of the picture. thats for sure, dude. and thats sad. yeah it is.
oh my. what a night. i am soooo stoked. cool. 3:55 am. outta here.
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