ten zero one zero nine
8:48 pm. home.
dinner done. just finished my snow shoveling skills exhibition here at home. damn. its so cold in the D. accumulation is like about 10 inches of snow already. so crazy.
it had been snowing since yesterday. last night on the way home, there were already many accidents on the freeway. oh man. its so slippery out here. ice and snow. perfect. what else could you ask for, dude?
we closed an hour early today. 7 pm. AJ needed to rest. he got so tired of our shoveling the whole day. the snow is relentless now. it just doesnt stop. not at all.
shoveling show at work. shoveling show at home. wow. machine boy. where do i get all this energy, dawg? am i on drugs again? plus no sleep. plus 2 miles walk a day. plus skip meals. plus no day offs. damn. someday, ill just drop dead. well, they say the wicked never rests. you can rest all you can plus sleep all you can when you’re dead. well. maybe its just maximizing the remaining time in this world. enjoying what’s left of the shit. bugs bunny once said, you just gotta enjoy, coz after all no one gets out of this world alive. well, he’s damn right. so what are we waiting for?
i was supposedly off from work tomorrow. but you know, snow time is show time. the girls cant help AJ with the shoveling thing. so im gonna work tomorrow. so its gonna be me, love and AJ. and of course, 10 tons of snow. damn.
i felt really good last night. i called up my mom, right? we talked for liked an hour. almost anything. of course the regular lecture is always there. smoking. hair. my cough. my meds. my shitty life. but you know, even then, it felt so soothing just hearing her voice. it felt like i am recharged again. like im back in focus again. thats a life line. happy bday mommy.
talking to a lifeline. talking to the one that matters is always priceless. no amount of call card or phone credits can quantify the feeling. you know, its the only thing you hang on to. its the only thing you have left. its the only thing that drives you and gives you that sense of direction. lets face it, someday, you might not get to talk to that lifeline again. so what are you gonna do? write all the things for that lifeline? its gonna be useless, dude. you know sometimes, we just cant appreciate things when they’re still right within our grasp. its only when they’re gone that we realize things. and its fucking too late. and its the truth, dawg. and thats kinda sad.
oh i almost forgot. i have to get my prescription refills at walmart. oh its been a week, dude. ill go there on monday or tuesday. ill ask for a break from AJ. i still have to go to that school for some finalization meeting.
yes at walmart. im gonna buy a portable HD. i saw a 250 gig external HD. wow. thats 250 gigabytes of memory. extra memory. plus this laptop’s 250 gig more. five hundred gigashit. crazy. for the long haul, huh? for all the pix. for all the vid caps. for all the lines. for all the songs. songs in the key of G. onwards to forever. and thats tons and tons of memories. sweet memories. cool. the making of a memoir.
back in the college days, people were calling me by two other names aside from my common name. papa bear, maybe coz i was bigger then. and speed. speedy gonzales. maybe coz im super fast. just like what i was telling you about the other day.
“So close no matter how far
Couldnt be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters”
staind. metallica song cover. nothing else matters. oh yes. nothing else. but the thing.
oh. this is so sick. metallica. nothing else matters. live. kirk hammet ripping the intro. so sick. guitar harmony.
brb.
back. 2:47 am. oh my. sorry. i dozed off, dude. just woke up.
btw i was talking about the video blog i was gonna try doing. still havent done that yet. but i will. anyway, ill link it here if i already have one. of course.
5:05 am. im starving. i ate peanut butter, nutella and bread. maybe i put a lot of peanut butter, its so sticky that i cant even open my mouth. crazy. anyway, i only ate one bread. LOL
untoy is still up playing PS3. i was talking to him about this laptop. you know the cost of this thing is just like a pair of my bike’s wheelsets. so crazy. for a guy who does not understand bikes, he might think im just plain crazy. he might even tell me that i have the wrong priorities. hell no. i always have the right priorities, dawg. i dont justify any shit here, but if you only know then you would probably understand why. i paid a decent amount for the bike but you know keira is always priceless. she’s one of my lifelines. a therapy if i may say. keeps my sanity. she’s the only constant to me and with me wherever i may go. she’s always done wonders for me so far. she’s a precious metal. one of my precious ones. oh yes.
i bought another 2 bracelets for robby. a dora and another hanna montana. but ill just keep them for now. ill give it to her when the its time again. you know she still has the other thing i gave her the other day. she’ll not appreciate it if you give it all at once. she might just even lose it, you know. but if you give it in installments, then she’s gonna be happy everytime. and that would be great. btw, robby is kinda sick now. she has a fever. get well soon rob.
if you notice, i dont always say bye. yes. if i know ill be back, i dont say my goodbyes. but if i say goodbye, then for sure im not gonna be back. coz you know, it kinda feels sad saying goodbye each time. its like a part of your soul also goes away. its like a part of your heart also goes away. thats why i dont say bye. but when i say it, i mean it. and im never looking back. and of course, burn everything behind. oh yes. what is there to it when you already said your goodbyes, right. might as well forget it. thats me, i guess. but you know sometimes, i get carried away. coz there are things that you just cant live without. things that whatever or however you wanna let go or be far away from, you just cant. you will just find yourself being back again. and thats what i cant just believe. its possible after all. oh my.
the d link connection sucked again earlier. we were all offline again. but thank God its back. the router is connected to the pc that crashed on me. its still messed up. its kinda weird you know. the pc is messed up and the router is on it but the router is still working. i dunno. it sounds crazy. but the thing is, we are online still. but if it gives up on us, then its gonna be a new router. or we’ll all die out here. die of not having an internet connection. and that will surely suck. thats gonna be chaos. and we dont want that to happen. at this time of my life where things make sense, i just dont want things like being offline, to happen. oh no. i will surely die.
5:30 am. logging out now. maybe ill watch a movie. or whatever. i still dunno. let’s see.
but for now, its green tea time. the label says, one before bedtime. and thats exactly what i do. good for the health. anti oxidant. good for my soul. just perfect for everything. makes me sleep better, i know. oh i just love this. hell yes.
outta here. later dude.
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